At this point last year I had no idea how bad things were going to get. Run down by stress, overworked and overwhelmed, low on sleep and bad on nutrition, I thought I’d just conquered one viral infection and then one bacterial infection only to be hit with a mild case of food poisoning. I thought I ate something that disagreed with me, and it would pass as these things are wont to do. I had no idea that I’d been inadvertently exposed to a potentially deadly infectious bacterial disease. I had no idea that I would suffer for more than a week before getting a telehealth appointment (thanks, COVID) where my doctor would tell me it’s “probably salmonella. There’s an outbreak in your area. But you’re young and healthy, so it will probably pass in a few more days.” I believed that was true. It wasn’t. I had no idea how bad it would get. I didn’t know anything about c-diff (color me a lay expert now!). It would be weeks more before I’d get the right tests, a diagnosis, and a[n inappropriate and outdated] first treatment. In the meantime, I’d be treated for salmonella, get tested for it and a variety of other infections, parasites, bacteria…and discover an allergy to Cipro. I would lose 40 pounds, quickly, within a month. I would find myself unable to do the most basic tasks. I’d be unable to eat and retain nutrients. I’d be dehydrated. I would finally get that MyChart message and the subsequent phone call: “immediately stop taking all medication. It’s making it worse. You have c-diff.” I had Googled it by that point and knew enough to cry. I could barely walk to the bedroom to tell Trent. He knew enough to call in to work for me and say I couldn’t be there. And so that journey began. But that’s weeks from this date last year when I had no idea how bad it would get.
On this day this year, I struggled. In ways I’d never have imagined a year ago. But I’m going to bed #grateful for progress; a new year; better health (still 🤞🤞🤞). Also, I’m kind of grateful I didn’t know then what I know now… I might not have had the strength to keep pushing on. #ThisIs41 #Healing2021
Wider than the Sky 